I notice big days are big red flags for me.
Hey, just a passing thought... My China account password was compromised 18 times. Should I be worried?
I don't want to play a Catch Me if You Can with these hackers. As long as they are just snooping around and don't cause trouble, I'm fine. Those kids got too much energy.
Yes, Sarah. Back to big days... I'm talking about these past few days:
- Darwin Day
- Chinese New Year
- World Radio Day
- Valentine's Day
* I take it that you are seeing the issue here.
Last week, I cannot sleep for 2 nights. Including last night, I don't sleep for 3 nights within the span of 8 days. That is a sign of trouble. Once a week is pretty normal according to Dr. Amarpreet. This is not.
I will start having hypomania if this issue persists.
Honestly speaking, I did stop taking lithium carbonate early last week. That could be a trigger though I doubt it. Lithium is a mood stabilizer. It helps in dealing with depression. So far I never experience the upswing with lithium. It is always about the downcycle.
It's not even a drug. It is just another mineral.
This insomnia could be because I switched back to sugar again. I eat a lot of dark chocolate ice cream cake and a variety of sweet desserts during Princess's birthday and the days after.
It could be due to overexercise or fatigue. That leads to high cortisol.
It could also be the result of a hyperactive brain because I got excited over the idea that these are auspicious dates.
Damn, it's a complex illness. So many possibilities.
Well alright, I'll deal with these issues one by one.
The good news is, I don't have dark depression and suicidal thoughts for the past 3 months. Therefore the dopamine fluctuation (rapid cycling) had stabilized. Now I only have to deal with insomnia.
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