19/2/21 ###From now I just flow

I'm going to remain microscopic.  Even decision-making is microscopic.

I cannot afford to be lofty with my thoughts.

We don't want to chase after shadows.

The end game is still to be vulnerable and non-needy.

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Goodbye for Now

Dear Els,

If I was behaving weird these past few days, I'm sorry.  That is the nature of my life right now.  I am doing my best to act normal.  Then again my normal could be your eccentric.

From now on I will minimize my scope on things that I can handle.  

The lofty ideas are nothing more than the effect of the illness on my thought process.

Don't take them too seriously.

I will be focusing on my running, reading, and writing.

Forget about the talks about world domination LOL.  That'd just something I cannot control.

Whatever I think of expands.

What matters is for me to manage my two realities; actual and perceived so that I can remain sensible.

Therefore, I think it's best that I leave you alone for a while.  Let's take a break until March.

I will be listening but I will not tweet you. 

Take care baby.  I always love you.

Sine Cera,

SJ

19/2/21

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Sharudin Jamal

@sharudinjamal

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@elsDines

Els honey, sorry for the erratic behavior recently. I decided to leave you alone for a while. I sent you an email to explain my situation. Avoir!

Basically, I cannot handle social media.  Or to be specific, excitement.

So I better stay away from Els.

I might as well stick with my SWEE PAWM 24/7  plan.

Even YHoW is not something that I should rush myself into.

mm