Sunday, 7 February 2021

7/2/21 ###I am not giving a fuck

 Does that mean I don't care?  Actually, it is about being true to myself.

Sure enough, I made some unpopular decisions along the way.

What counts is for me to continue with my journey uninterrupted.

Nobody is going to care if I succeed or fail.

If it is to be then it is up to me.

HAVE NO FEAR.

  • Fear of Poverty - I still have a bit of this by clinging to Pal
  • Fear of Criticism - I am OK here
  • Fear of Ill Health - This I know I am a fighter
  • Fear of the Loss of Love - this is something I have to accept.  It is just limerence
  • Fear of Old Age - As long as I can run, run and run, I just move forward
  • Fear of the Loss of Liberty - As it is I value my freedom.  I am free as a bird
  • Fear of Death - I have no fear at all, I look forward to death with a smile
Time to focus on The Period of Completion.  Certainly, I am moving away from the Period of Success.

I am very sure I don't want a life where I have to look for money.  If I have to do that, then I am still in the Period of Success.  I have to say goodbye to all that.  I have to purify my conscience so that I will attain a heavenly life.

As it is I cannot say for sure that I will go to heaven when I die.  However, I believe I know how I can attain bliss while I am alive.

Let me pursue the life of a man fully functioning.  The life of a runner.  The life of having a heart inside the body and a second one outside by mobilizing the legs.

Still, my lifetime pursuit is to run, read and write.   As long as I have access to those three simple pleasures of life, I don't need much money.

I believe my investment in the two eyeglasses and the current one I am wearing now are my wisest investment I ever made on myself.

Sigh, currently my fort is under attack.  Let them come.  
“A man can be destroyed but not defeated.”

I will still hold on to the fort for the next 61 years.  There are houses that stand for 400 years.

Actually, I still need to make money if I want to live to be 117.

If I am to move out into an apartment, what do I need?
  • My V Neck T-Shirts
  • My 2 Jeans
  • My 2 Cargo Pants
  • My 2 Puma Shorts
  • My 2 Adidas 3/4
  • Shoes
  • Socks
  • Caps
  • Running Apparels
  • PC
  • Notebook
  • My Feng Shui Set
  • My Dragons
  • Knives Collection
  • Handphone
  • Tablet
  • My Starbuck Mug 
  • Fan
  • Nautica X
  • Al Araf 7:7

 So, when I am 117, all I need is CCC, a closet, a table, a bed, and a chair.  I don't even need a car.

Heck, I still need RM500 k in the bank if I want to live in a comfortable new house.

Listen here, Sarah...  I am done with Els.  I will still talk to you.  But the truth is, the magic is gone.

I am so into my Vision Quest that I only want to live my life to the fullest.

All I care is to RUN, READ and WRITE.

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