No more dopamine fluctuation.
I should concentrate on being thin and fast. That's all that matters. Diet and exercise. OMAD and AHAD.
Along the way, I read books.
RUN, READ, WRITE, REPEAT.
The rest are clouds in the coffee.
As I am getting well, I am less agitated by other people's behaviors toward me.
Really, I should just be by myself.
I should continue carrying the motto; I don't give a fuck and I don't fuck up.
I should look at the Period of Success and prepare for the Period of Completion.
There are some similarities between his model and mine. Now I am very certain that I should be working towards the second half of my life.
I should be enjoying my retirement using the PERMA Model:
I write my own story. In this story, I traveled far and wide to realize that all I want is to run, run, and run. Hence my world is a world of solitude.
I decided to say goodbye to Els. She is a waste of my time.
IT IS A LIMERENCE AND EVERY LIMERENCE HAS AN ENDING.
It doesn't last.
I am already fed up with the whole thing. I might as well focus on Completion. For me to reach for heavenly life. To strive for unconditional love.
I'll take John Paul Getty's advice, "People can hurt you, things can't".
This pussy, Els can hurt me. Do I let her? No way... I am on a Vision Quest. I will strive to become the heavenly me. Not the me that is dependent. I should strive for independence.
A WARRIOR WALKS ALONE.
It will not work even when I am interdependent. Where I go, I go alone. Just like a lonely long-distance runner.
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