My darling sweetheart Els,
“When life itself seems lunatic, who knows where madness lies? Perhaps to be too practical is madness. To surrender dreams — this may be madness. Too much sanity may be madness — and maddest of all: to see life as it is, and not as it should be!”
― Miguel de Cervantes Saavedra, Don QuixoteWhen Don Quixote attacked the windmills, he knew they were not giants but just windmills, However, he still thought of them as giants. I am taking that attitude. I know the epiphanies are illusions. However, I take them as real and see where the argument leads.
On one end of the spectrum, there are people who reason out that there is no life beyond death. On the other hand, there are those who refute that we will endure for eternity. What is the difference here? On one side, we have the skeptics, and on the other side, we have the believers. Both sides are very convincing. Each supports his belief with reasons.
However, in absence of clear evidence, the answer is like Schrodinger's cat paradox; the cat is neither dead nor alive.
In my case, I will only know the answer to my epiphany that I got when I was 52 by the time I am 77. 52 + 25 = 77. 5+2 : 2+5 = 7 : 7.So forget that I am the 1964 Wood-Dragon born a[s] (at) 3:18 am, the hour of the Tiger.
Or I am Forever (4) Yin (9) & Yang (6) Forever (4)
Or that my phone number is +60 1964 33 888
Or Tian Long changed color from rose gold to golden gold twice!
Or NagaNaga shifte[r] (shifted) from facing east to facing north at its own accord:
Come Sunday 7/4/2041 Year of the Golden Rooster, we will know if all these are mere illusions or if they are for real:
I am not going to wait for 20 years to find out. Sailbad the Sinner had set sail on 13/1/20. Coincidently the same day the first case of Covid 19 was spotted outside of China in Thailand.It is also the same day I decided to walk KL with Azzue. The first time ever.
For me, it boils down to these basic questions; are we worm feeds or are we going to endure for eternity? If the former is true, I better live my life to the fullest. If it is the latter[s] (latter), then I want to savor this next 20 years as if it is one great celebration.
Honey, although we are looking at two possibilities, they are not equally weighted. If you ask me, I *[say] say I am in favor of life after death. That's because I am a believer.
* Notice, this is coming from Sarah, who was an Atheist.
So the basic question then is, are the epiphanies real? I believe so. However, I'm not going to wait for 20 years to find out. I am taking the attitude of both apple and no apple. I am living to my fullest and at the same time savoring every day as if it is a celebration.
My darling sweetheart, do you know that you are instrumental for all these to happen? We are on the same complementary Path. Therefore as much as my reality is affecting you, your reality is affecting me too.
Gosh, I guess you don't know how much I love you, don't you?
Not to worry. Stick with the secure attachment. On my part, the secure attachment goes on for eternity. You will always c[a]me (come) back to me.
Merrily, merrily, merrily, merrily,
life is but a dream.
I always love you, baby...
Sine Cera,
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