According to SOCSO, I am a Person With Disability (PWD).
I am not entirely invalid. I can still think rationally. What I cannot handle is the dopamine surge. Hence I cannot handle excitements.
Therefore I need to contain myself and do damage control by only confining myself to the blog.
The furthest I go is tweeting and emailing Els.
So, since I scope my social parameter to just the blog and Els, I should not meddle with External Affairs.
This illness is not an either-or situation. While it affects my judgment, at the same time it increases my ability to make an analytical observation and to develop a high sensory acuity.
So while I have to discard some of my thoughts as absurd, other things like the epiphanies are pretty much thought-provoking.
Things like the ability to see through a mathematical model are pretty amazing. Same with the ability to see patterns a[s] (and) to form correlations are both pretty amazing.
It is as if I ate the Fruit of Knowledge and it is both a poison and elixir.
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So can I rely on my thoughts? This is both an apple and no apple situation. I say, thoughts while I was in mania are heavily influenced by the dopamine surge. It is like your mind on drugs. Certainly, I will not rely on it
How can you tell? They are written in capital letters, bold, multi-colored, and the biggest fonts.
Other than that, the contents are pretty somber.
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