19/3/21 ###All those esoteric experiences are nothing more than delusions

 Mental illness sure is weird.  Whatever you believe in becomes a reality.  At least now I know that all those esoteric experiences are nothing more than delusions.  Seriously, when they happened I thought they were real.  Turned out they were false beliefs

Sharudin Jamal

@sharudinjamal

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@elsDines

#traxxfm I have too many songs to choose from today. You decide: 1. Coming Home 2. You Say 3. Melody 4. Remedy 5. The Cure 6. Rewrite the Stars

Basically, I want to know if it is OK for me to be who I am because as far as I can remember I was always a divergent thinker.  

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Sarah,

I want to eliminate all thoughts that are not substantiated by sound scientific or mathematical principles.

I have to solve this issue.

The impossible is always possible for those who believe.

Sharudin Jamal

@sharudinjamal

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@elsDines

#traxxfm I like this Rewrite the Stars. Reminds me of the early days I get to know you.

Sharudin Jamal

@sharudinjamal

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@elsDines

#traxxfm This is what I learned today: The impossible is always possible for those who believe. By now you should know me; I have a mission and I only rely on a handful of people for emotional *[emotional] support. * I am a micro guy. What I need I can't do without.

Sharudin Jamal

@sharudinjamal

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@elsDines

#traxxfm Within B.L.E.S.S. you are ranked the second-highest after Sarah in terms of the most time I spend with. Lizzie falls in third. So imagine, without you, there is no B.L.E.S.S. My evenings will not be *[] (the) same without you. You are my Miss Sunshine.

Sharudin Jamal

@sharudinjamal

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@elsDines

#traxxfm Your songs tonight are very therapeutic. I feel much loved...

Sharudin Jamal

@sharudinjamal

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@elsDines

#traxxfm Sweetheart, I talked about a lot of unworldly things with you. However, what really matters is Mens Sana in Corpore Sano. That *[] (is) my institution right now. That allows me to be thin *a[s] fast, my ticket to the ultimate destination; health and happiness.

I feel much better after spending time with Els.  My conclusion is; everything happens for a good reason.

Those delusions happen for a good reason too.  At best, I managed to write fiction based on my frame of mind at that time.

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Basically, I just go through the motion like a river flowing.

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