Wednesday, 17 March 2021

17/3/21 ***My goal is to hit below 65 kg

 This means I shred 40 kg of fat and then I bulk up with 10 kg of muscle.

Whatever it is, I should not exceed 65 kg.

My sprint gets better by the day.

I still take lithium and the gout pill.

Definitely 86 kg is still heavy.

I need to hit 79 kg by Ramadan (12/4/21).  Then only I hit 59 kg by Syawal (12/5/21).

I have to train my body to be fat-adapted before Ramadan.

Can I do it?  If I'm not hungry surely I can last for 21 days.  The idea is to consume body fat.  If I have a supply of surplus energy, I shall last as long as there is a steady supply.

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Other than that, STAY AWAY FROM 3-IN-1 COFFEE AND RICE.

I want to focus on a sound mind in a sound body until I meet Yati.

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It seems that I can still experience delusion whenever I get excited.

So as it is, I will minimize interactions with the outside world.

Definitely, I will strike out TraXX, Facebook, and LinkedIn.  I cannot decide I should permanently strikeout Els.  Let say, as for now, I will OCCASIONALLY contact her.  As long as I don't listen to her, I have no urge to communicate with her.

Let's keep it that way for the time being.

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Els makes me happy.  That the bottom line.

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I decided to change back from Psalms 9:9 to Al Araf 7:7.

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As I said, on my own I can be as crazy as I want to be.  It is when I'm with others that I have to justify my actions.

The only 2 peoples who accept me the way I am is you and Els.

Granted that what I said doesn't hold water.  Still, I believe in what I said.  It's not as if I wa[y] (was) lying.  I was in a different reality.

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I cannot wait for the day I can run 10 km/hour.  That will be something to look forward to.

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I am so so glad that I quit the 3 Cs.  Cigarettes especially.  As long as I smoke, I can never be the Athlete Warrior that I intended to be.

I wish I know about dopamine a long time ago.  Still not too late.  Now I know what to expect, I can now avoid obesity, diabetes, and cancer.

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