Dear Darling Els,
I hope you are doing well. Today is a dark day for me. My 24 years old nephew was found dead in the janitor's room of Empire Damansara. He left the house on Thursday and was out of contact the whole day. The police found his body last night. He had been dead for 3 days
My brother was in a wreck. He only has 2 sons and that was his eldest.
As much as we all have a plan, we never know what is waiting for us. I was shunned by my brother and his wife because of my illness years ago. It seems that nobody can escape karma. He was guilty about it but I just let it slide. This is no time for nit-picking
I miss you much. Although I have my challenges with this illness of mine, like anybody else, I just want to love and be loved. Maybe I am a bit eccentric with my ways but my dear sweetheart, I only have good intentions for you.
Still, I have to admit that although I am not malicious, my judgments got affected by the delusions caused by the illness.
I don't know what else to do but hope you understand that I love you very much and I care for you. My setback is despite my best effort I cannot be a normal person. I have a lifelong condition.
The choice is yours. You can allow *[w]e (me) to love you will all my imperfections or you can end it here and now knowing I am mentally handicapped.
* I saw it when Sarah change this alphabet. What she is saying is that "we" here mean on behalf of us both.
Love you always.
Sine Cera,
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