Of course, I feel sad letting Els go. But it has to be done. It is none reciprocating.
Rather than moping about the whole thing, I prefer to focus on my Bronze Medal. For the next 3 weeks, no carbs.
Els is an addiction. Pretty much like my addiction to cigarettes. She is a dopamine hit. I need to break the addiction. I need to break the pleasure pathway.
It is pretty much the sake scene in the Last Samurai.
Els is a band-aid. The deeper wound is my void of love since childhood.
I cannot replace that by pouring my love to Els. She is nonreciprocating.
I need a greater love. I need the love of nature. Nature is ever giving.
The One Hour AHAD is the one hour I embrace nature.
Do not depend on people. People have the potential to hurt you.
Instead, depend on things - John Paul Getty.
You bet your bottom dollars that I depend on Psalms 9:9
None of its members has the potential to hurt [h]e (me).
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