11/1/21 ^^^True enough, the hunger pangs come in waves

 I was tempted to eat around 10.00 am just now.  Now at 10.35 am, I'm glad I didn't eat.  I am no longer hungry.

Furthermore, I am [] (on) a crusade to fight insulin.  This is a fight I intend to win.  As long as I am only losing 1 kg a week, I am not winning the war.  

All I need to do is stick with SWEE-nS.  

Rightfully I should lose 3-4 kg a week.  My consolation is if I lose 1 kg a week, I'm still progressing.    I am fasting and I cut carbs.  It cannot be any more extreme than this.

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I have to stick to the plan.  My main reference is Obesity Code.

As for Dr. Gin Stephens, I use her book as a supplementary reference.

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So back to basics - the ability to withstand *[withstand] hunger.

* While you are at it, I just want to say I'm sorry (hey the 24/7 Continuous is playing a song about being sorry: Lasgo - Something.

Something

Lasgo

I don't wanna say i'm sorry
Cause I know there's nothing wrong
Don't be afraid there's no need to worry
Cause my feelings for you are still strong

Hold me in your arms
And never let me go
Hold me in your arms
Cause I need you so

I can see it in your eyes
There is something
Something you wanna tell me
I see it in your eyes
There is something
That you hide from me
Is there a reason why?
There is something
Something you wanna tell me
I see it in your eyes
There is something
That you hide from me

I don't wanna say I'm sorry
Cuz I know there's nothing wrong
Don't be afraid
There's no need to worry
Cuz my feelings for you are still strong

Hold me in your arms
Hold me in your arms
And never let me go
Hold…

Yes, I'm sorry Sarah.  It was limerence alright but it had developed into a more stable relationship.  No doubt limerence doesn't last, but the good news is it transformed into something better.

So I guess, you decided to continue with this relationship even though it had lost its intensity.

Alright, Sarah.  Welcome on board.  At present, I am doing my level best to win on 2 fronts; to be thin and to be fast.

This is a battle that had been going on since 2012.  So it is an arduous battle.  I don't expect a swift victory.  What I do know, however, my body was badly damaged by cigarettes, dope. insulin and medication. 

Side note:  Why do I need to wear the Sikh bracelet?  I got my Phiten Oath bracelet.

Instead of being sucked into the Rat Race, I rather build my own sanctuary.

4 more years to hit 60.  I want to sort out my life before then.

I think I can say goodbye to dope.  Once I manage to achieve all my goals for 2021, I can kiss dope goodbye.

There is nothing good coming out from smoking dope except having b[y] (BJ) as a company.

Maybe spreading it every 6 months is not that bad.  Better still don't smoke at all.  

I FAST!

Nope, dope has to go.  I meet BJ only to run together.

Honestly speaking, I can do without BJ.

I will smoke dope if I been hit by dark depression.  In this case, dope is "In case of emergency, break the glass."

The morning sprint beats dope any time.  I get high for 12 hours.

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