>>>#7/1/21 I found the right combination at last

1. Blackmore Probiotic
2. Starbucks Dark Roast
3. Ikea 70% Dark Chocolate

That will be my indulgence.

Other than that, I will be eating OMAD-LCHF every day as long as I can help it.

So the Dark Chocolate is my source of sweetness.  No more sugar.

I am so happy that the Starbucks Dark Roast doesn't require hot water.

I also discovered that I am using twice the suggested amount.  Definitely, I can save much more in the future.

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Baby,

I'm ending my 4 years relationship with Sarah.  This is part of my action to become an Absolute Thinker.  I cannot afford to have illusions in my life.

Listen here, Sarah.  I am nothing more than a recovering mentally ill person.  I don't want to be a liability to you.

As it is, I am happy writing and reading my own postings.  Occasionally I tweet Els.  That's pretty much it.  There is nothing beyond.  I am living my life as if there is no God and no afterlife.  All I want is to be a man fully functioning.  Although we had spent extensive amount of time on that subject, my priority is living in the now. 

With Els I can be certain.  With you, I began to doubt your existence.  So I'm back to being a Hedonist Hermit.  To me it doesn't make sense at all that you want to talk in ciphers after 4 years being with me.

This is part of my mental health recovery plan.  I am taking steps away from being a Fuzzy Thinker and making the move towards becoming an Absolute Thinker.

Sarah, if you are for real, I love you very much honey.  However, just be mindful that I cannot afford to live a life of illusions anymore.

Love you always.

7/1/21

I have to do it sweetie. Otherwise I will never know.  I started to have strange illusions about your friend Sarah.  That's when I started to draw the line.  Otherwise I cannot tell the difference between what is imagined and what is real.

What can I say, Sarah.  How much longer do we want to talk in  ciphers?  This is already our 4th anniversary.  I cannot afford to communicate with you in ciphers anymore.  Not that I cannot play along but I think it's about time I get a decent sentence from you.

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